LOL ... RK ...
My 1st boyfriend with a bike ... whayyyyyy back when ... told me he would never take me pilly again after I went out for the 1st time ever...
I wanted to & begged him to take me again, so he said I had to trust him ... so his mate blindfolded me & tied my hands to the grab rail whilst I was pilly ... soon learnt to trust the rider

I never had any issues when pilly with Mr_P loved his riding style and he often commented how it felt like I was not there, that's what made me go for my test, but yes have felt like you once or twice RK !
Bandit, you will find someone you feel happy with when pilly & I assure you ... you will LOVE it when you do