RC hun I have just read this thread and send all my love and heartfelt condolences. It is so hard to lose someone so very close and so loved but as everyone else has said time is the greatest healer. Close your eyes and he will be there any time you need him, believe me I know that for sure.
Much love and hugs to you and hope Digger is looking after you well, love to Liam, Mazza xxxxxxxxxxx