Hey CG - don't go putting yourself under pressure by imposing deadlines on yourself... Above all else, biking should be fun in my opinion... if you're not having fun, then have a rest for a bit.
You don't need to make major decisions like whether you continue biking in the long term or not, just go with your gut feelings for the time being - ride if you feel like it and don't if you don't.
Do take the chances to try other bikes when they arise, as you may just surprise yourself by finding that a different riding position does the trick for you.
And you won't lose out on the social side of biking life if you ultimately decide that riding's not for you - as I'm sure you know, we'll all come round and drag you out, if necessary!
Give yourself a huge
and allow yourself to feel proud of what you've achieved so far. Choose to ride because it's what you choose to do, not because it's what others expect of you!
Grab your Rescue Remedy and enjoy your test ride tomorrow xxx